You really don’t need to say anything. I completely understand and will always sit here whenever you need to talk. In silence…

Once, there was someone I badly missed. I rode life high and low, bled myself dry, got stoned and sober again, been to hell and back; and still I can’t forget her. Then, and only then, I’ve learned: maybe I’m not supposed to forget her. And guess what? That’s what happened. I didn’t forget her, but now when I think of her, I don’t feel any pain anymore… Stop trying so hard to forget.. Weep now when you have to weep. Just realize that you’ll always have us to have and to hold, until that time comes. The time when you’ll be able to remember him with a smile. And nothing but a smile…

*an email from Fajar Jasmin, back in February 2009. he once said ‘you’re an angel without wings’, ‘one of these days, I’ll see you blooming again. right before my eyes’. and last night, last night he told me ‘love is never far when i have you’. think he just forgot that he’s an angel, too. love you, fa. i always love you..